Having a wonderful women would make you smile everysecond.

Staying honest in life is one difficult thing to go through. One must either not lie or be perfect. But since no one is perfect, its almost impossible to stay honest. When its impossible to stay honest its also impossible to avoid an arguement. Thats where fights between two partners in a relationship comes with a face. We cant force someone to change their attitude. because it will never happen unless he or she is willing to do so for that one person. More and more its a very rare catch you will be able to find a person that will change their everyday schedule, their habits, their mother nature for just one's being. How is it possible for one to do such change for a random person. Its just suicide to think so.

A writer walks to english bay everyday and see's many people walking by and he gets the blue running down his cheeks from his eyes. Not only is it the first time he has seen such a beautiful sight of people loving and caring for one another but also the love he never had before. He sure do would love to have experience the feeling to be love by some you love the most. So is it too much to ask, asked the writer. Take my paper and take my pen, for a pen and a paper is his career. giving such thing up is unspeak off. Take it all says the writer, take it and just let me feel what these lovely people are feeling. Let me be the barrell of dispair to what they have found. All he wanted was someone to love him they way he love that curtain someone. The writer has no family, has no siblings. The writers is what americans would say in deep shit situation....

What can we say about the writer ? Is the writer lonely ? Yes, obviously. Is the writer seeking for love ? Well at most part of the text. Then whats the conclution here? The conclution is found is not somethiong you find in the text. Its something within the text. Who ever mention that the writer is not inlove already ? Who ever mention that the writer is not in a relationship ? We cant judge something that is not writen or shown in a text. Its a false judgement then.

What we as readers dont see is that the writer is being heart broken by the person he love the most. From options that we can predict is that the person that the writer loves could'nt love the writer the way the writer wants to be love. Would'nt it be a sad sight to see someone fate to be writen. So what can we say about this story. All the writer wants is the lover to love the writer back as much. But in this life nothing is as we wanted. Only time will tell. We can only be the victims. But at the end no matter how bad things get. the writer always smiles when the lover shows even the slightest judgement of love towards the lover. I feel the pain to what the writer feels.

Its Hurts To Be. But its burns not to be with.

Times change. What goes up must come down, If one is born today than one could die tomorrow. If you inhale, than you must exhale. If you thirst for water than you toxified it with urine. If people in Australia can laugh than dont be surprise that India is crying. People change feelings rapidly. I try to stay the same all i want is to improve. But please dont change to fast. It hurts me. It hurts to see that your emotion change from sad to happy with just a numeral object. But at the same time it burns not to have you. In order for me to stay happy and smile about it is just by swallowing all the pain that is cause at the time of event. It seems like money is the thing that you want than a life with me.

Funny Post

Are you that sure that you are able to scare me with people who wears blue uniform or a long man dress with a hammer in court ? Id be laughing out loud if that were to be the case. Now essentially your not able to sue me even if you have asked further authorities. Now this is my fact.

If you were to sue me for something dumb as (WHY I SAY DUMB? Cause your not smart enough to make a proper report) this then let me lead your way to your loss. Number one we did not even make eye contact on the day I was in your school.
* I did not mention what school now did I ?
* Even if you have friends to say that they saw me, then whats stopping my friends from saying likewise?
I mean I know I was not making eye contact with you, unless you were eye balling me that I dont know nor do I care. But it surprises me after one view of appearance, "one" can change their mine so fast. HMMMM I mean I wouldnt not mind to back off after hearing you say, " WE STAY OUT OF YOUR WAY, YOU STAY OUT OF OURS" after hearing that, it sounds as if your appologizing for something Im not reffering to whom i was talking about. But yet that just shows how you actually do have an IQ. But damn it would be fun thought to go to court and see you lose in public and in papers. OOOOOOHHH. Owh well time to grow up you high schoolers.

The Pain That Cost Me My Life

I have no one to trust but you. I have no where to go but the place in your heart. I have no shelter to hide but the willows around your arms. Sometimes its better to tell a big lie than to know that small truth. To what I have done for you is a having a window open but yet it is as if its closed. I feel despair to what has happen. I am in a situation where you put me behind the bullet. I feel like I am at the edge of the sharpest knives. I can't recall my feelings towards any emotion that strikes right before me.

I swear I curse and I drink. Promises are just a mere word to me now. Faith is money and trust is the receipt that I have to what you think was my moms. Life is and ordinary child that walks by with a cookie on his left hand and an ice-cream on the other. I want my baby back. I want my old Yulia backkkkkkkkk. Take back the scratch you scared on the inner part of my chest! Don't let me in with this pain baby. Life is so unfair. Baby all I want from you from all the fun we share something no one can give. Baby please. Bring back the nights when I held you beside me. Bring back the time of our lives. Feels like just yesterday you had me all over. You hug so tight that I was so lost that I couldnt tell wheres up or down.

I'll sit aimlessly thinking where have I gone wrong. Lighting my lighter and walking throught life unnotice knowing that no one cares. Seeing all of this haze and all of this pain. I'll burn it all down as my dreams shatters with all the hope I had. I want to see everything fades away. I want to see everyone screams. I want to see everyone suffers. I want to see everyone in pain. As that happen, I'll sit myself at home laughing to what I have experience.

Now that I live on my own without the help of any soul (and i mean no one, not even family). I have no responsible towards them or to anyone. I was born independent. I was a fuck child. Dont know what it is ? It means as it sounds. So yeah everyone can say. "Big whoop, I know alot of 19 year old live by themselves without the help of anyone", I mean sure you have. But not the way I spent my living type you've seen. I was'nt born a silver spoon but I am not going to live in poverty. Hate me for different. At least I wont be the type of father that would say to his child as so:- Son, I think thats a bit too expensive for daddy to buy. Or even something a husband would say to his wife:- Honey, you know "WE" can afford that........... WHAT THE FUCK. He mention the word "WE", as in both him and his partner has to pay for it. Like as in he would let the wife pay. !!!!!!!

So yeah call me whatever, at least Im not living a hypocrit life. All the male species say life starts when your 40. In my oppion to why most male say that is because before they reach the age of 40, they have a shitty job with 23 thousand kids to feed and 45 hundred wife to take money from. So as soon as he reach the age of 40, he has no dept cause he practically use everyone by the age of 30. Therefore all I can say is Fuck You with your "IM OLDER THAN YOU, SO I THINK IM MORE EXPERIENCE IN LIFE" ( i mean yeah your totally amazing, since you take a bus to work every single day till the day you die.

That why and I cant let my life to be the same as others. I live my own life without the help of anyone. I'll take Yulia with me far far away from no liferss. If your so blindly think I'm leaving her for an office and an awesome paycheck or being a liutenate in an Airforce in Holland or even for another BIMBO. Well you must be fucking kidding me cause thats not going to happen ever. I love her so much that non can compare with. You must be either drunk or retarded to actually think Id leave her.



This is to people who have big mouths over Fendy and Yulia or just Yulia

Some girl name Aubrey or Audrey - Some bitch thats getting rape in the future.
Chealsea - I dont know here but she use to create proble
Davyd - Some ching who dare to threathen me.
+6012 200 2889 This asshole who chicken out after i scolded him for disturbing yulia
Fierra - Some porkface wannabe

I'll make it simple for you guys, to the girls who has a problem with Yulia please deal it with me. I am sick and tired of you rich kids who only go to a SEMI private school. ERM ErM i wanna say that again. A SEMI private school, yet you all show off more than my friends who go to Alice Smith or Month Kira or even Garden. So please to girls who dont want to be rape by my horny guy friends than please shut your pussy tight before I pay someone to bleed it open. And to the boys who dare to touch and mention the name Yulia. Well then if i were you i wouldnt. I have alot of friends. I mean of friend, most of them would love to make a chinese boy cry all the way to the hospitals like a mamas boy with a broken nose and leg. I actually forgot how its like to break a nose. Mind REMINDING ME THIS SATURDAY ?????? Yes im abit racist when youve cross the line.

To My dearest Yulia

Baby i have no other thing to say but I love you with all my heart, nothing less than those there words. I will jump to the sky and and actually scream your name so that almost everyone knows that we are together. I wish that as soon as I fall to that very ground, it is you that im thinking of, i wish that ot is your face that i picture in my mind before meeting my own angel of death. Baby you are my Halo to my angels of heaven. I will only be logical that turn back as a muslim just because that "GOD" promises that if we are good in earth, we will both meet in heaven for all eternity. Do you know how much that means to me ?




Baby I cant imagine a life without having thinking about you every single moment I breath, I feel lonely the very seconf you dont pick up my phone call, I feel disgrace the very moment you think I abandoned you, I feel sad the very moment you tell me something you want to tell me but I couldnt hear. Baby i love you so much. I just cant stop missing you , you make my beat day by day.




Baby do you know that 60% of times you talked to me on the phone, I wasnt concerntrating? Did you know that. Like when you tell me you go out and you sleep over and stuff, I didnt really pay attention. Do you want to know why ? Its because all I want was to record your voice, tattoo your vocals into my brain. I love you so much that i really dont fucking care what you did or what you didnt (depending on situation), all i want was the last 3 words you tell everytime you finish talking on what you were telling me about. I am happy everytime you tell me. I miss every second with you. Sayang, Im not going to lie to you, I hang and talk around with alot of girls, but non of them can even compare to you sayang, if me and you were to grow old together i want our grave to be right beside to eachother at the very spot we got married baby. You dont know how much I love you

I Molded My Love For You

To the the most important person in my life :) I care for one person alone and thats my utter most joy of love for Borodina Yulia Nikolaevna. Baby if people say loving you is stupid than i don't want to be smart. I rather die being hit by a truck knowing the last thought that I made was just strictly to be with you forever

I can't imagine a life without knowing you existed in my heart. I jog everyday not to look good for me, but I jog everyday to look good for you, I want you to be proud of me. You made a new man out of me baby. The old me is dead and gone, I am all yours. No girls i know can love me like you love me. Most people just gave up on me. But you stay put didn't you baby.

I love you so much sayang. Hold me and never let go :) MUAHXXX

A loving someone

I am on the verge of loving the most important person in my life, reverberant the most estimated love i can ever experience. Straight up, I can say that my love to you is as legitimate as black president can be. I am the most luckiest human with a blessed penis walking on Broadway. Thinking about it in my sleep making sweet love to you and getting a child with you makes me want to cry. Having you as the mother of my child is just a mere happiness to having you as the women of my life.


Getting her as a part of my life, is similar to having an adrenaline rush from riding a hundred grand superbike! If you don't know how that feels, then imagine this. Imagine your love in first sight feeling, now picture that but in a very long run, my feelings never change. I still feel like I am in a dream where reality does not exist!






To My Dear Borodina Yulia Nikolaevna :)

Hooker in Hastings

Lets talk about "Human Affairs" now shall we, honestly i dont give a cats ass about your little cat fight between you and your other pussies but from when i sleeping, Which is just so you know, i live in Vancouver, and I am not rich, I just live independent without my parents! in which what I am trying to screw in your "MALAY" brain is that you are too close minded to think deep. Honestly from what i see through your page is that your a wannabe hottie, you wear a tank top as if u got boobs, u make that stupid face as if your hot, u stretch sit as if your sexy! Your a fucking Muslim, go wear those Hijab (its tudung if you dont understand what i am trying to tell you) and baju kurung like you should, or else the MIGHTY GOD WILL PUNISH YOU, don't be a hypocrite.


First off don't you ever insult my Yulia ever again, but bringing me down as well would not be a the best thing to do. Bringing me down would be like having your mom making her own myspace. Wouldn't that be dumb. Owh she did didnt she!? HAHAHA lame!! Now the reason i did not put Yulia in my myspace would be because (its actually personal but you malays girls are too dumb to ever comprehend anyways) Tom created a website called myspace, he did not however create a website called ourspace, sadly its myspace, so its my fucking space, my fucking decision, why would a malay bitch like you fucking care eh ? i love her so much that i asked my mum to meet her! you dont fucking know that do you ? all you malays girls know is "Owh what a beautiful day to criticize". Thats your moto.


Owh but i am forever thankful to know that you know me, even when i don't know you it makes me feel special, although i already know that this particular event is happening, it happens to me all the time! Im sorry i dont have many friends on my friend list to prove to u because i only accept adds from Caucasians and Non malay-chinese or indians, thats why its so little, if i were to accept those ppl than id ask tom to put extra memory on my myspace!


On the other hand, you calling me and Yulia Ugly is just low. OMG OMG OMG i dont even believe in GODDDDD, Im sorry your boyfriend isnt a seventeen model for singapore and vogue, im sorry your boyfriend isnt a producer for Rockstar Studio's. And im sorry that the top-est most respectable director in the entire MALAYSIA didnt call your boyfriends mom to ask her son who is in vancouver to act and be an actor! I am terribly sorry that your boyfriends name is not FENDY ARMANY, Holy shit thats real, Im not faking it, thats my real name, that is what a EUROPEAN Father would name his Amsterdam borned child. Besides, Yulia is so beautiful that seven of your comming generation looks like ape compared to my Yulia.


Hope you get this straight, I would take Yulia as my wife any day I want, shes the most important person in my life besides my family, But Yappering to you about Yulia would make you sick, and all my chattering about me and who your so called perfect boyfriend or husband will never be. I'll be sure to drive down your ally when i hit to Kuala Lumpur with my very own Ferrari driving as the youngest richest boy in South East Asia, just so you know, but dont tell anyone ok......................... I am already half way there! hehe.


So i wish you luck you BITCH